Panopticon-ing Everyone

#47 Collected Agenda

WHAT I DID

Thursday, May 8

I've been panopticon-ing everyone here, and you have asked me to stop. Ok. I'm sorry I have already told about what happened on Wednesday. Not here. Imagine it's all fantasy. I mean it when I say that I am really not talking about myself.

Being all confessional and then I feel kind of gross about it. Being kind of glib about the parts I thought were most sincere.

I've been neglectful, most of all. Right now, I am most sorry about that.

In the end, you'll be lying on a Japanese floor mattress and you'll be thinking about the parts that are still the same.

Tonight, I went to the party that I usually avoid. I went home before the parts that come next. Another flight tomorrow, and I wish there wasn't more travel though, I am glad for where we are going. An old school hotel, Sue Wong beaded dress, borrowed shoes and sharing the different details of my life like oh it's been all grad school and true love and self surveillance - this part will be nice.

My friend suggests …